Who Would Have Thought....?

It amazes me to think

A love of my own

Who accepts me for me........?

Who would have thought?

Having been frustrated with heartaches

Looking out of the window for the sun

But only seeing the fog and rain

Who would have thought?

Once stacked with hurt on top of hurt

Hit with let down after let down

Fear of people and what they may think

Who would have thought?

Love would find me down in tears

Love whispered to get up and live

Love nurtured me back birth, born brand new

Who would have thought?

I can love again

I can live again

I am whole again

God said he knew

Alternate Reality

Holding onto love, squeezing for life
Is it all real, or is it even right?
The way that I feel, is something brand new
With a familiar face, do I play the fool

A place of bliss from your tender kiss
A heartbeat away from saying I miss.....
You..each day I think to myself
Should I hang this up or put you on the top shelf?

A 3-D love that comes within reach
Are my eyes deceiving me, or is my heart....pissed
This fantasy with the characteristics of real
Will this ecstacy end, or is this the real deal?

This augmented reality, is hard to accept
I can't tell if I am sleep, or out of breathe
A coma it is, a coma this must be
To feel so much love and also feel so free

Someone fix the picture, the pixels cant be right
To feel so good, and to glow so bright
When you enter the room, when you enter the scene
My mind is blown, the feeling is so serene

Your love is out of this world
I just cant believe what I see
Your feel... your touch.... your smell
Has to be a love of an alternative reality

Remember

Remember the time
I first met you
Your voice so fresh
Your smile so new

Remember the time
I told to you
You were so beautiful
Your style was so cool

Remember the time
We walked in the park
At night we kissed
All of that I missed

Remember the time
When you were hurt
My shoulders extended
Your heart I mended

Remember the time
You were all alone
When no one cared
But I was there

Through all of these times
I hoped you knew
To remember this phrase
that "I love you"

Please remember this time

Put Myself First

Tired of being last
This line isn't moving fast
There are so many people ahead of me
And standing tall I still can't see

How did I let all these people in front of me
Should i say something now or should I let it be
So small a voice, o me, can you hear
I'm way in the back standing in fear

With my heart on my sleeve
Someone snatched it away
In the back of the line
Can I endure another day

Not knowing when I'll move up front
This has to be a dream, a joke, a stunt
Why should I keep on standing in place
People ripping me off, this cant be safe

Stripped of my joy
Standing around this crowd
I need to find a way
To move out front somehow

I'll learn to live life
I won't get closed in
I'll smile with the all happiness
And love myself from within

The only way I can truly be free
Is to make a change to focus on me
Love myself and rid all the hurt
Step out in front and put myself first

Fading Away

Started out so strong
It was love at first site
Everything that was wrong
Was flipped to feel so right
With you.....

You took my hand
As we walked the path of love
I felt it all was faith
That sent me you from above

But now you seem so changed
You love sometimes locked away
That path we once walked
Seems foggy and far away

The assurance you once promised
The security you once gave
Have seem to lost it's grip
Loose at the lock and frayed

Oh what do we do now
What choice should we make
I feel so left alone
Not sure which way to take

I tried to think real hard
I tried to bow and pray
Lord please give me a sign
A sign of what to say

The answer I know is true
But I've tried to turn away
Our love that was once strong
Has begun to fade away

To her, he is the One

To her , he is the one
Morning sunshine, the light at night
To her he is the one
The ultimate security blanket
A Defense, a shield from the smaller things

What would she do without?
Be an independent woman with no seed
Walk around high and mighty but empty
To her, he is nothing
Nothing meaning not there
Life with sharing
Life without caring, at night
To love, to kiss, to hold
To her, he is non existent
It is non-existent as to be without


Why have him?
To quench her thirst when dry
To her, he is the one
To ensure she is filled up when on E
She will make it through
To her, he is the one
That makes days smile
And nights giggle
And mornings memorable
And why have him?
Why deal with him?
Why keep him?
Cause he is the one

The Visitor

Viewing the sights
Pretty Landscape, tall buildings, billboards 
Viewing Flashing lights
Cars honking , people snapping pictures, shops open
This all feels right, but I am the visitor

Corner stores
Selling things known but not to all
Restaurants
Mixed cuisine, unidentifiable aromas from afar 
Fashion
Flashy and conservative , provocative and fresh
This all feels right, but I am the visitor

Parking my car in the garage
Using my key in the door that I paid for
Walking into the familiar place that houses clothes that fit only me
Sitting on the bed that only has my imprint, my mark
This feels right or does it?
Am I still a visitor?